"Alisha puts into words everything rough & beautiful about life that we all feel, but don’t talk about."

dark poems and grim tales about love, life, and losing yourself

"an honest look at the messy side of healing"

"the honest part of healing."

"this poetry book is both heart breaking and heart strengthening."

The Worst of Me 
is hauntingly beautiful
& unashamedly tragic. 

With the same raw writing and unflinching introspection, found in her previous collections, Alisha weaves together poems about love, lovers, defeat, and the demons we keep in an almost fairy-tale-like way.

The Worst of Me is a soul-stirring poetry collection that recognizes the strength it takes to confront one’s shadows and embodies the transformative power of self-acceptance; the good, the bad, and the worst. Put on your favorite dress, slip off your shoes, and step into The Worst of Me; a captivating collection of poetry that unearths the things we hide in the dark.

I wrote this book because honestly, I was tired of healing. I was tired of being “good” and being treated poorly. Tired of rumors circulating, tired of feeling like I would never get where I’m going, tired of waiting for “Karma” to give me justice. And by doing this, I realized:

Part of healing is accepting the ugly parts of yourself.
The parts of yourself that you don’t necessarily like.
The parts of you that other people don’t like, but you do.
I realized that part of healing is accepting your humanity.
And one of the most healing things I’ve done is live a wildly unsuitable life.
To disappoint everyone but myself.
To pursue pleasure in any form I choose.
Part of healing isn’t living like you or like anyone expects you to.
It’s living like you want to.

why i wrote this book...

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about the illustrations & artwork

I grew up with a mother who was also an artist and this meant everything we did was heavily critiqued, whether it was writing, singing, playing an instrument, and especially, art, so I have always felt I’m no good at it because it didn’t meet the expectations of an artist. This book is also really special to me because, for the first time ever, I am publicly sharing some of my own little illustrations. I may or may not have gotten a little drunk in order to relax enough to create the illustrations, lol. I hope you hate them as much as my mother would 😉

This book also includes some public domain art (one of which is a religious piece that I made a little slutty )

I hope you use the pages like your own diary; press flowers into it, draw your own “shitty” artwork, leave love notes you’ll never send.

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